Frustration is high; probably the highest it has ever been without injuries being a part of it. Yes I'm still unhurt but can't seem to get any forward momentum. Everything I'm about to say is fixable, but the fact that I didn't pisses me off. So this is not whining but merely me bitching at me because I know better.
In Southern California the wind comes off the ocean, but in the morning it's a headwind. It's 50/50 going to be a hard headwind if you wait past an hour after sunrise. Yes I can wait until later when it's a tailwind but it screws up my day since I have a long leg lift and bars afterwards.
So I take it for what it is realizing I'll be down a pole or two and maybe back a stride or two in order to use a pole that's normally too small. That's life and my choice. I know too many people who train in tailwinds and then struggle in meets. I would rather have it the other way around.
We have a brand new $20,000 pit and it was left uncovered yesterday and overnight meaning it was soaked. So massive headwind and soaked pit; what a great start to my vault day. That's OK as I need two vault days and I have the poles to adjust.
I start on my smallest pole and it moves easier than normal but I can't jump on it from 2 lefts/4 steps/23' because I'm now 158 lbs. So I move back to 3/6/33' and "finesse" the pole and don't get in. Then I hit it and go almost off the back of the pit.
Grab the next pole and have a ton of height but I'm not quite in far enough. After three jumps I see I've skipped a pole so this one should be stiffer because it is. I move back to 4/8/43' and go up a pole because I now this one will be too small.
Two crappily timed jumps and then BOOM - I finally nail a good jump. Next two are really good and then I move back to 5/10/53" and up a pole. Can't time it to turn up. The grip feels too low from 5 but the pole is to stiff from 4. Can't take it anymore and leave.
I sit in my car contemplating retirement. I'm sick of no progress and all of this hard work. Somehow I drag my ass into the gym and literally talk myself into every single rep of every single set as I almost just get up and quit about six times. I made it and I'm happy.
I need to get my weight back up but I don't want to feel fat. Big challenge to make that happen but I will. Have a great Easter and thanks for your support! Bubba
Sheryl Crow singing my feelings - All I Wanna Do (Is Have Some Fun) - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yAEpLMTjCC8